Taskmaster
the muse will not be
mitigated, satiated, filled
restlessly, he bids me always
to pen when i would sleep
i call him "he" tho'
in fact, "she" he may be
or even "it"-- as bestial
he often devours me whole
Phantasm? Demon? Harpy?
Fury? Friend? Foe?
Muse at my shoulder
monkey on my back
all senses or affect
any tranquility I may possess
or long for, any serenity I demand
is always answered "nay"
"Legion" he very likely is
for he or they never sleep
or take ease or allow it
driver driving the driven on
he takes my spirit to task anon
Quixote, questing, dreaming impossibly
haunts my wakings, troubles my night
tilting at windmills and at nothing
like Poe's eternal Raven
not imprecating "Nevermore"
but exhorting me "onward"
"Excelsoir" and "evermore!"
Not bird, nay, but yet hawk, even vulture-like
in wary watchfulness
knelling, compelling, opining
of what? je ne sais quoi
would that he were,
my night companion,
as Poe's winged fiend
made of flesh and feathers
Like Dickinson's thing with wings
for then I could perchance parley some
converse, rail, inquire, implore
enigmatic possibly, but living
Or, in greatest travail
cease his eternal bullying
silence his endless harangue
plunging my quill in his breast
but ever, mine is Petra-still
implacable, immovable
a fixture, with only orbs
and zeal alive and probing
all-seeing, omnipotent, still
pity-less, remorseless, relentless
like water on a stone
encroaching, eroding, erasing
further still, a millstone
of justice and retribution
a nemesis, revolving slowly
grinding steadily finer
wearing me down to
thought, emotion, specter, bone
taxing, teasing, telescoping resources
to unreachable reaches
would that my demigod ever
commended or even acknowledged
my passion-drained self
my craft-weary, word-heavy soul
Under his ceaseless, scalding stare
I will 'ere be apprentice
journeyman perhaps, but never
master, magistra, beladonna
In ages past and times to come
I will tarry not in slumber
while decomposing, I compose
in composition, no repose
~marilisa, 2/22/12 Ash Wednesday
the muse will not be
mitigated, satiated, filled
restlessly, he bids me always
to pen when i would sleep
i call him "he" tho'
in fact, "she" he may be
or even "it"-- as bestial
he often devours me whole
Phantasm? Demon? Harpy?
Fury? Friend? Foe?
Muse at my shoulder
monkey on my back
all senses or affect
any tranquility I may possess
or long for, any serenity I demand
is always answered "nay"
"Legion" he very likely is
for he or they never sleep
or take ease or allow it
driver driving the driven on
he takes my spirit to task anon
Quixote, questing, dreaming impossibly
haunts my wakings, troubles my night
tilting at windmills and at nothing
like Poe's eternal Raven
not imprecating "Nevermore"
but exhorting me "onward"
"Excelsoir" and "evermore!"
Not bird, nay, but yet hawk, even vulture-like
in wary watchfulness
knelling, compelling, opining
of what? je ne sais quoi
would that he were,
my night companion,
as Poe's winged fiend
made of flesh and feathers
Like Dickinson's thing with wings
for then I could perchance parley some
converse, rail, inquire, implore
enigmatic possibly, but living
Or, in greatest travail
cease his eternal bullying
silence his endless harangue
plunging my quill in his breast
but ever, mine is Petra-still
implacable, immovable
a fixture, with only orbs
and zeal alive and probing
all-seeing, omnipotent, still
pity-less, remorseless, relentless
like water on a stone
encroaching, eroding, erasing
further still, a millstone
of justice and retribution
a nemesis, revolving slowly
grinding steadily finer
wearing me down to
thought, emotion, specter, bone
taxing, teasing, telescoping resources
to unreachable reaches
would that my demigod ever
commended or even acknowledged
my passion-drained self
my craft-weary, word-heavy soul
Under his ceaseless, scalding stare
I will 'ere be apprentice
journeyman perhaps, but never
master, magistra, beladonna
In ages past and times to come
I will tarry not in slumber
while decomposing, I compose
in composition, no repose
~marilisa, 2/22/12 Ash Wednesday