Riffing in ombre on a blue Coltrane

riffing in ombre 

London foggy rain

strolling in Memphis 

in the blue Coltrane


psychedelic raga

once wept from sitar 

Carnaby street lad

now props up the bar


his Nehru jacket

in velvet brocade

for a proper pint

he'd now gladly trade 


those were the days we

thought would never end

now hurdy gurdy man

can't even find a friend


fancy Afghan coat 

once posh and natty 

can't turn up collar 

for the fur's all ratty 


so go striations

a bedrock timeline

of Jurassic coast

can you spare a dime


it is not kismet

it's no fault of his

nor karmic justice

just is what it is


youth calls to aged

folks who crossed the bar

a dear old lady 

who reached out a spar


my ancient mariner

by the name of Mary

her bar-crossed Russel

old lady of the sea


riffing begets memory

as down deep I go

wind at my window

holy wendigo 


I' ne'er cease ceasing

to call and call more

shall I call the gods

to enter through the door?






Disco requiem at the rink


riffing in ombre

liquor layered drink

drain rainbow cocktails

round the roller rink


long before deejays

played favorite song

a man on the dais 

piped us all along 


playing grand march on

Wurlitzer organ

gaily funereal 

round we go again


mirror globe twinkles

gypsy crystal ball

many tinsel diamonds

reveals to us all


did it show me sad

when my dad said no

just up the block

but I couldn't go


there was a time when

nothing stopped we two

back before they came

but he'd other things to do


(hmm conspiracy theory there. Stepmother needed me there to babysit.)


he bought me white skates

with pom-poms of pink

but I wasn't keen to 

wear them at the rink


time for pom-poms past

while he bypast me

I'd moved on too 

I'd other life to see


and skating changed too

no more organ dances

now the records spun 

on to other chances 


or to letdowns when

the one I loved so

after promising me

he didn't even show 


(hmm sounds like SOMEBODY's DAD! oy vey, men. I ask you...)


so oddly it seems

I see so clearly 

me in the mirror

that boy I don't see


don't know who he was

yet I do not blame

this two-faced lothario

whatever was his name


got no time for grudges

on this memory train

does he recall me 

my long forgotten swain? 


what I see are colors

FD&C Red No. 4

kidney killing yellow 

a poolside blue floor


Fanta red pop and Hi-C

tried some recently 

nearly gagged myself 

just for posterity



tawdry and garish

artificially bright 

the best place to be

on Saturday night 


ubiquitous shag

carpet lines the walls

fluorescent remnant

to buffer the falls 


booby-trap bathroom

with sink hole floor drain

mind how you go now

or you'll fall again


skater hangover

not from too much drink

Sunday morning bruises 

from punchup with the rink 


hadn't thought for decades 

of all my rink rash 

those damned waxed floors and

falling on my ass--hhh


signature scented 

mildew carpet and sweat

stale popcorn machine

I can call it up yet


garish colored walls

all go rushing past

so merry were we

how quickly they passed


hollows echoing

empty cheery call 

we'll never hear again

calls to no one at all


skating rinks all gone

no more disco requiem

now bougie sweet shop

still I see and hear 'em


dad and stepmom sleep

many moons in the ground

so  quietly gone that 

I barely hear their sound


just read that boy died 

calliope symphony

 the circus death march 

sung in perpetuity





 





Tlingit Memory: the many-eyed shawl



gathered by a river

Chilkat or Klukshu

was so long ago

just recall the view


coming from Klukwan

in a Volkswagen bug

wheezing through passes

with a cranky chug 


mountain skyscrapers

eagles and caribou

air so pure it hurt

skies bombastic blue


Tlingit river mother

splitting out her seams

fattened on spring thaw

where the sockeye teams 


cascades carousing

whipped to violet foam

dancing through mountains

where the grizzlies roam


assembled were we

I've vague memory 

of native celebration

blanketing ceremony


chosen and adopted 

by Chilkat Tlingit 

draped like a queen in

our native blanket 


I had a picture

of smiling little me

with missing front teeth

snuggled cozily 


enveloped within 

a many-eyed shawl

formline spirit beasts

mute but seeing all


adopted name given

from Chief's grandmother

titled Dok-du-Yik

to me and no other


(I know that I have spelled the name wrong. Perhaps said it wrong too. Apologies. It's how young me heard it). 


I didn't understand 

yet knew t'was serious

wearing her name robe 

ancient and mysterious 


such a large mantle

for one so small to wear

big responsibility

for a child to bear 


I've long treasured

my Tlingit memory

but given few thoughts

for this much loved lady


Hope I'm good enough

to carry honor's weight

she deserves a worthy 

namesake and soulmate










Girl with toes of poolside blue

Miss Po aka Emma Grace age, 3ish

lovely little lady

our sweet Emma Grace

with endearing charms

and cookie on her face


many grand ideas

too large for likes of we

only outpaced by 

invincibility 


pizzazz by the pound

with mouthful of sass

ambition by the peck 

and yacht-load of class


motto of our girl

with smile open wide

was can't never did

anything till she tried


simpler to say sorry

than ask mom or dad

was personal creed

our adventuress had  


nicknamed Po after 

Red Teletubby

percolating fun 

and some frights gave she


left for minutes at 4

created famous 9-egg cake

recipe requested when

to potluck we did take


Some Po adventures 

ended less fragrantly

nearly gave Anthrax to

friend invited for tea


via her deceased

pet bunny in repose

exhumed decomposing

to show to Anna Rose


(Hers and Anna Rose's mum had their rest interrupted as well, by stench!)


Her misdeeds now live

in family infamy 

alongside siblings with

their own quirky story 


mini merry soul with

toes of poolside blue

painted by her dad

who'd better things to do


round pinky finger 

she'd him wrapped so

what's more important 

than painting nails of Po?


(change the oil, paint upstairs, replace roof shingles...)


blest was I to hold

for sugar cubes of time

a funny wee sprite

who briefly was mine


glad for memories

so quickly she grew

into firmament 

our baby bird flew


A word when dealing

with such a busy maid

snuggle but don't cling

and hide your garden spade.










Night Shift Change in the Glen

This lovely lady visited our bird feeder and she is always welcome!

Ma Hen snuggles chicks for rest

Mother Bat wakes hers to play

As workers at evening shift change 

Each begins and ends their day


Father Snake glides home

on his silky self-made train

in crumpled suit and tie

caught in the rush hour rain


Stare-eyed feather alarm clock 

Ms Owl hoots the night awake

Little fox sleepily stretches in

his flat above neighbor snake


 a gal who's both driver and bus

is multitasking Mrs. Opossum

with eight little joeys in tow 

now that's one very busy mum! 


Brother bear nods "g'night, ma'am"

heading home with dozy stumble

munching bedtime snack of berries 

gives him such a silly mumble


let's not forget Raccoon with

his handsome bandit mask

washing lunch in the river

is this critter's endless task


Milady skunk emerges for

the woodland cocktail hour

wrapped in her finest furs

like a queen in her bower


the deer family creeps out

to feast at our bird feeder

satiated on the nuts and seeds

retreats to forest of cedar


in the room in the house

overlooking the forest glen

a freshly bathed and PJ's lad

beds down in his own den


his rest arrested by many

inquiries large and small 

about animals he sees and hears

much wondering about them all


"where do fish sleep and when?"

asks the nodding boy of dad

to prolong the nightly ritual

as pop tucks in his weary lad


"We'll speak on the morrow 

of your perplexities, my son"

yawns the nearly sleeping father

"but for tonight, your papa's done!"


And satisfied with promises

he knows his daddy will keep

like the woodland creatures 

the boy snuggles down to sleep


 Amen and good night to all


For my grandson Moses who asks and answers many, many, many, many questions. And to his mother, Mrs. Opossum. 


 



 







A Lenten Story of the Honest Little Boy

Hello readers! A blessed Good Friday, April 3, 2026 to you all. My how the minutes sometimes crawl while the years fly by. Here's a piece I wrote a decade ago (!) about an experience with our oldest son. And while the decade in between hasn't been idle, and we now have 13 grandchildren, I do probably need to sit with the fact that 10 years is a long time. It's not that I'm disappointed by my family, not in the slightest, they are my everything. I'm disappointed that I seem to have done so little if import. Every Christmas when I hear the John Lennon song "so what have you done?" I think "not a damn thing, and thanks for the cattle prod to the conscience, John!" But anyway. This isn't about me or my maudlin regrets. It's a tribute to a small but gestalt act of kindness by my little son. Here's what I wrote. 

It's the Lenten season, 2016 and with all but one child moved out (and the last one a busy senior) I'm feeling a little reminiscent. After homeschooling our children for years, it seems odd not to be wrapped up Lenten activities the children. Here's a story to warm you, on Lenten virtues about my honest little boy. It's true. 

My husband and I have always lived frugally, by necessity and by choice. We raised four children in a 20-year-old mobile home, on a single income, with one 15-year-old shared car. We practiced minimalism long before there was a word for it or it was cool. So it would have been easy for our children who often did without the luxuries others enjoyed, to grow up selfish, greedy and demanding. They heard the words "we can't afford it" all the time. 

But they are unselfish and generous. In fact, they practiced Lenten generosity to a fault. Here's a Lenten vignette to illustrate just how unselfish and kind my children are. The protagonist is Albert (affectionately named "Albie" the oldest son). He is now almost 26 and was eight when this occurred.  What Albert did wasn't particularly heroic. He didn't save anyone's life or perform a superhuman feat of courage. But what he did is perhaps one of the hardest things for little boy--he was honest at his own expense. 

While at the beach one hot summer day, Grandma and I were cleaning up from the picnic. The children were helping/milling around to give the 15 minute digesting period before heading back into the water. Albie ran up with something in his hand and said "Here Mom, I found this." He casually tossed it on the picnic table and ran off to play. It was a lost wallet. 

Grampa inspected the contents and declared that it only had a few singles in it." Grandma, being made of good Hollander stock, made a more thorough inspection while I nursed the baby. Well, the little boy had found not a "few singles" but $226 in ones, fives and a few tens. The lost wallet was empty of everything but the cash. No identification, papers, nothing. 

I called Albie over to tell him what he had found and so began the family debate over what to do with the loot. His sister and Grandpa were for Albie keeping it. Grandma was for turning it in to the lifeguards (this idea roundly scoffed at by Grampa who declared that they would just pocket it). 

Mom (me), the mystery reader, had decided that the lost wallet was really planted by DEA agents and full of drug money (don't judge, it could have been!). Our hero, honest Albie, had his own ideas. "I'm going to ask Daddy. He'll know what to do." (I get tears in my eyes every time I remember that trusting voice.) (2026 fast forward, yep, still do). 

I said that since Albie had found the money, he could decide what to do with it. Dad, who as at work for the evening, was duly asked when he got home. That wise owl suggested that he and Alb take it to the police department, which they did. The officers in charge were completely delighted with my little boy. They said he was a "great guy" for being so honest and that not many children would turn in $226. (Dad regaled me with stories of how they'd just fawned over him, like in one of those old cop shows from the 40s). 

Albie was issued a claim ticket for the lost wallet and told that in 60 days if no one claimed it, the lost wallet and money were his. Just as the 60 days were nearly up (and sister and little brother busy planning how to spend their sibling's hack) a letter came for Albie in the mail. It was from another boy, the owner of the wallet. He was 10, slightly older had been vacationing in our area and lost his wallet.

He said that it had all his saved up money his paper route, raking leaves and odd jobs. He said his parents said not to bring it all but he did. Because that's what kids do. (Been there, raising my hand, lost that money). The boy said he never expected to see it again and was so grateful that Alb was honest. Albie received a $50 reward. I think Albie has pretty much forgotten that random act of kindness over the years. But I have not. I don't think God has either.

My Giving Big little Boy

I wrote this piece in, I think, 2015, about our first son and I thought it would be appropriate to share for Good Friday. All of our kids, not just the lad in question, are incredibly giving people. And have birthed a baker's dozen more good little humans. Since that writing, he married the girlfriend featured and they have provided us with two wonderful grandkids. I wrote this for a site called Bubblws which seems a lifetime and planetary system away. Anyway, here goes. 

I just called Number One Son (chronological, no favoritism). I had to nag him to confirm if he'll be flying with us to New Orleans to see his sister. He keeps saying he's 99.9 percent sure he can get time off. I said, "Son, 99.9 percent only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades, not with mothers booking flights." 

But I digress. I also wanted to know when he would be arriving for Thanksgiving and if he would be bringing his girlfriend. And he broke the news. He's not coming. He's driving to New York to serve Thanksgiving dinner at a homeless shelter/substance abuse center in the South Bronx.  

Naturally, we were pleased and proud. And showed it by yelling at him for not coming home (we're possessive to the point of mania with our kids). And by lecturing him on bed bugs, scabies, body lice and the avoidance of such. When backpacking in NorCal he ignored the advice of his helpful nudist female guide (yeah, there's a story there), didn't use the Technu wipes, got poison oak.  

And seriously, the Bronx? He lives in Detroit smack dab on John R and East Edsel Ford! Could you not find a shelter there to assist at, so you'd have time to zip home to visit? No, you have to go haring off across the country, worry us sick, abandon us, we harangued. Dad pouted-- "Alb doesn't love us. He just wants adventure." To which Alb readily agreed he did. But he wants to give back, not just take this holiday (which of course we understood but were too sulky to admit). 

The mission is St. Anthony's Shelter for Renewal (410 E. 156th). Bronx readers, if you see a handsome green-eyed, redhead with a smile like the morning sun, looking lost, that's him and he probably is (lost). Just direct him to 156th and tell him his mama says be safe and she misses him. And if you had time, could you just follow to make sure he makes it? He's cute but a little air-headed. Thanks.

Dune spells, Cinnamon toasted


cinnamon toasted

cherry jam and ghee

memory's comfort food 

reminisce-story


coffee perfumed homes

warm me to my core

Uncle Bloke and Aunt Ann

with always open door


grama's dining room

only for company

I was not a guest

I was family


'round kitchen table

solved life's mysteries

ate like a king or

better than majesties


at her plenty-scented

refectory dine we

on mushroom pork chops

with onion gravy


je ne sais quoi whiff

with notes of Big Lake

so profoundly real 

little self doth ache


pine spice and hemlock

water with sand sun-bake

takes me right back to

their home on the lake


Sunday was for walks

in woodland with gramp

limber lost we two

in our lake dune tramp 


benevolent flavors 

from my evergreen queen 

peanut butter kisses

berries wintergreen 


found in a dune trough

mystical mist fog

signature oak scents 

of bicycle shaped log


tramping back home with

many a dune tale 

grama on the porch

the dog wags his tail 


braunschweiger toast and

sweet gherkins for tea

coffee for elders

a glass of milk for me


old memories clearer 

than yesterday I see

those two dear people

always wait for  me













In the Bleak Midsummer


in the bleak midsummer

winter still resides

cold descends my soul 

fever chills insides


irony of iron grey

within solar rays

shivering summer

dirty darkened days


sunrise sickens me

sun golden light drains 

to dishwater blonde

muddied by the rains


I ran to the dunes

perchance to find Zen 

but my lake turned away

I am cold again


frigid similes

frozen to the bone

funerary tomb 

in lichen color stone


time scrubbed the name

who in tomb does dwell

has all memory 

been erased as well?


my heart aches for her

it seems such a loss

All that's still living

is grave-crusted moss


I don't part well with

those beloved and passed

eternal rest prayed yet

my heart holds them fast


is that why my lake

calls then denies me 

Am I refusing them 

peaceful eternity? 


I don't mean to keep

them bound up to me

How to release them 

is a mystery


we're told to let go

I think that's fallacy

how can  I release

those with hold on me?


p'raps it goes deeper

this cold in my bone

to dank memory 

of all my alone 


pain like hand smashed

by door slammed on me

peering in a home

with no vacancy 


Theirs the backs turned

by family within 

windows shuttered tight

so I couldn't see in


now I see her smile

lake's arms open wide

but that doesn't melt my

permafrost inside 


is it black all over?

does dark dwell in me?

does this tunnel end?

is there light to see?


I like grey wet days

I do not mind mist

But I'd like to feel

my face by sun-kissed


bleak is for winter

black for a short day

I want the lemon 

yellow sun today


this poem isn't resolved

fresh out of great amen

not sure where it's going

it's just at the end












The guillotine kneeler-- a painfully humorous narrative

This is my noir humorous narrative about my husband and the guillotine kneeler at church. Updated today, to reflect issues heretofore forgotten. 

Note on kneelers: Those of you who are Catholic will know exactly what I mean, having probably had your shins injured on those garage-door heavy fold down kneeling benches on the backs of pews. There are more humane medieval torture implements! And if the lowerer isn't careful (like the main character of this story) they come down with the force of a canal lock gate. You uninitiated should consider yourselves lucky. And wear hockey-grade leg guards and steel-toed boots if you visit. 

So a quick run down on how pew traffic is supposed to work. Individual or Group A enters pew, the kneeler is lowered for pre-mass prayers. The ideal plan of attack is that on a designated leader's count the group en masse lowers the kneeler after first doing a perimeter check for any feet blocking its descent.  This should be accomplished by signals, whispered consultations and consensus. Should be. But often isn't. 

If/when group/individual B, C, D, etc. enters pew, group A (B, C) sits back, raises kneeler and allows them to pass. Then, kneelers come down, and back to obeisances. Why you may wonder, don't ya'll wait till everyone is seated to do your prayers? That's far too sensible, why would you even ask such a thing??

Additionally, you may wonder, why doesn't everyone just move over? Which also makes prefect sense unless you understand another weird thing about Catholics. We guard the outer seats as if they were the Hope Diamond. I have seen people literally hug the upright pew end, while skewing their legs over to one side to make room, in this bizarre snake-like slither.  As if it is a pier and they are afraid they will be swept away.  

Sometimes, in clinging for dear life to the pew end, they forget to coordinate their leg action. One leg slides while the other remains fixed ending up legs lasciviously splayed wide as if in salacious invitation. The result can be pretty alarming to contemplate. I'll just let that mental image stew in your brain.

Then juxtapose being essentially propositioned at church, with the open challenge glare, that just dares you to ask the pew Klingon to scootch over. Trips to the confessional have been required after encounters such as these. And don't even get me started on confessional queue violations. I have had to confess confession line related sins! 

And then there's the awkwardness of praying as it were, down the neck of the person seated in front of you, who has either A) gotten there earlier and said his prayers or B) (tsk tsk) doesn't say his prayers. I realized as I was counting his freckles and judging that he really needed to shave his ears, that this is far too close proximity for two strangers to be. And that I was not comfortable being near enough bite him if I wished. I didn't, just saying. And yes, shame on me being distracted on Easter. But c'mon admit, you've felt the cringe too. 

So you finally get everyone in their seats, prayers said, and mass begins. But the struggle is not over. Not by a long chalk.  Because one thing to remember, these kneelers are not just used before mass. Oh no, that's another thing that would be too simple and too safe. There are several times throughout the service in which those limb-smashers descend on unwary legs. And this is where the blood sports begin. Because there are like four kneelers to a pew and there's not just one Gruppenführer to contend with but several.  

And after last Palm Sunday, I have decided that my husband will not be that Gruppenführer. To start, he's not as careful as our feet and shins could wish. It's more like he pulls out into traffic and THEN look for cars. And hubby dearest was in rare form last Sunday. So mass was all discombobulated anyway, beginning with a procession outside, carrying our palms into the church. Which necessitated the raising and lowering of the kneeler as people were finding their seats again after the procession dispersal. 

Because did my husband wait until all were seated to start praying? No he did not. I think it's a personal challenge for him to see how many times he (we) can raise and lower the kneeler. I burned 200 calories before mass alone. 

Then enter a guy who was clearly as ADHD as my husband. First, he sat on my palm so I could not use it for the blessing. I had to share my husband's and instead of just letting me hold it too, hubs painstakingly separated it in half, slicing his finger in the process. And we haven't even gotten to the entrance antiphon. 

Then, neither pew-mate nor husband were paying attention at that ubiquitous kneeler lowering. Husband just guillotined it down with a whoosh-chop-thunk and I (the only one paying attention) had to kind of surreptitiously kick/push the man's foot out of the way to prevent crushing. This happened five times. The third with MY foot getting clobbered. 

Mass finally ended and my neighbor escaped unscathed no thanks to himself or my husband. But it wasn't over. I was temporarily put off guard by a friend's greeting and husband came in with a blindside bench descent at the Eternal Rest prayers. I don't know what the poor clueless bloke (or any of us!) had done to merit tarsal amputation.  Somehow our would-be hatchet man missed again but he definitely had an axe to grind and feet would roll. 

And most ironic of all, was husband's beatific face in prayer after nearly dismembering us multiple times. 

Pompeiian reverb


Pompeiian reverb
Form with no Function
Void reclining in
sleepless dormition

uncomfortably cramped
attitude of repose
I don't envy the model
this miserable pose





inverted geode doll
crystals inside out
vacancy within 
leaving all in doubt

where is the lady
in the gown of blue?
gone or just popped 
out to use the loo? 

who could blame the gal
who left her shell behind
lit out to find an
open state of mind?

cold bespoke casket
Rigid cloying mold
corseted to keep
cellulite on hold

escaped confines of
Spanxed conformity 
now wears old blue jeans
when she goes out to tea? 

perfection's a bitch 
reach exceeds our grasp
Venus de Milo curves
bite us in the asp

beauty's sepulcher
Snow White in her tomb
fair sex pilloried since
we were in the womb

pardon my cliches but
they're very real to me
man-made cages, jails, cells
dank familiarity 

expiring before 
we even begin
buried alive in
purpose built coffin

death eating father
brought the doom on me
honeyed hemlock of
morbid litany 

why the hell so smitten
with dames who are dead?
Pre-Raphaelite OCD
I'll bet she's a redhead

This maiden who left
empty dress echoing
glass still resonates
long after her going

I rejoice to see 
that this bird has flown
hollow lies the dress
of bondage glass blown

dragged herself out 
of bedragoned moat
our Lady of Shallot
good you ditched the boat

we'll hold space till you
Find functionality 
And if you don't well
keep on going, baby! 

Don't need ruby slippers
nor tight frocks of glass
to bust see-thru roofs 
you wrote your own pass

Oz only gave Dorothy
what she already owned
Emerald city exit
a balloon ride home 

Cinderella didn't
need shoes to break chains
didn't even need a Prince
just her head full of brains

I'll take a leaf from
departed sisters' book
to find my true north
in the mirror look.

Here's to our gone girls
Egalite! Sorority!
let's grab the brass rings,
ring that bell of liberty! 




This ekphrastic poem is based on Nocturne Reclining 3, by Karen LaMonte, shown above and on view at the Muskegon Museum of Art. Please visit and support local art museums! 















Tarmac Where My Wintergreen Berries Lived





I went back to the woods where I played 

with grampa in the dunes near the lake

My mother goddess Lake Michigan

or the big lake gitchegumme to locals 

this land was made for you and me


Houses sit and tarmac covers 

where my wintergreen berries lived 

drywall shacks that grew not from seed but 

chewed up, used up, spat out natural resources

post-industrial waste of too much muchness


too many structures holding too few people 

flimsy construction from destruction of 

the Great Spirit Gluskabe's stately dunes

irreplicable, irreplaceable, unshakable


until the diesel breathing monster machines came

gorging themselves on magnetite, hematite and quartz

of prehistory older-than-ice-age sands 

more non-renewable comrades fallen 

Avē Imperātor, moritūrī tē salūtant


Extinct is forever and gone is for good

it made sense of a sort when there were jobs, 

railroad, factories, newspapers, telephones 

neighbors and communities. America WAS Great

now it's just glutinous and grasping 


We build boxes to house bric-a-brac and junk

we buy too much of and don't need and

can't pay for and go bankrupt to have

and don't use and throw in landfills

already the size of small cities


useless crap to feed corporate and consumer greed

for things they will only destroy in a very short time

Woodsy used to say "give a hoot, don't pollute"

And we held hands and sang

if those poor owl could but see us now


ironic yard signs reading "no over development" 

in over developed sub divisions with landscaped

marram grass where it once grew wild

ripped out to replant in its native habitat

Why?


signs preaching "keep off the dunes"

in the yards built on trashed dunes 

and "dune preserve" preserved where?!

an asphalted over melted glacier Lake?

a concreted old growth back dune forest 

of pine, fir, Eastern hemlock, spruce, trillium


lady slippers, wintergreen, protective mosses 

oak, juniper, trilobite, petrified wood, fossils 

ground to wood chips to decorate lawns

that smothered animal habitats that grew

where leaves and needles once blanketed 


nothing remains except spent, sparse 

scraps of tree cremains left where they are 

till their spot is needed to build 

some family an even bigger house

And the Lorax laments on...

 

that they aren't going to use 

the divorce will be final before 

she moves in,  alone with her cat

kitchen larger than diners of childhood

sharing a cup they call loneliness


homes as large as tenement halls 

contrast the shotgun singles of my youth 

with a family of seven crammed 

to the gills under one roof, comfortably

homes that house families of families


two bedroom homes, not houses 

where people ate dinner at 5:30

around a Formica table in the kitchen

somehow they all miraculously fit 

chewing their knees with their rolls


now the huge kitchens are decorated

with cookbooks and spices no one uses 

and mass produced signs telling us to "Gather" 

in empty rooms with no one to comply

Seeger, Baez, Dylan, Peter, Paul and Mary warned us


There's an enormous dining room with

table big enough to seat the Love Boat crew

it's covered with packed boxes 

Each eats DoorDash in his room with 64" TV

Strangely Estranged, strangers called family


all that's in the commercial grade fridge 

which could hold food for a battalion

is vodka, half a lime and a takeaway

her Prozac prescription and a tin for the cat

paradise was razed for that


working to pay off overpriced boxes

they were never satisfied with anyway 

and soon they will move out and the

house will become another industrial sediment layer

crumbling my beloved dunes out from under


and they will gut someone else's childhood

to build their empty little boxes on 

the hillside made of ticky-tacky

to house their knicky-knacky crap-y

and they all look just the same. 


I want my berries back. 


Shall I tell of stars hidden by the queen?


lying underneath 

psychedelic skies

iridescent blue

sun spots in my eyes


penning out my verse

he sleeps in the rays

each one celebrates 

in our preferred ways 


Shall I tell of stars

hidden by the queen

mute in the daylight

till night makes them seen


pondering nature

which glyphs to choose

lake days in the sun

my favorite muse


with hyperbole

in woods we do roam

shelter of the trees

is our little  home 


the bigger thought gets

a line of its own 

onomatopoeia

in glissade of foam 


alliterative 

litter festooned wave

words drip like driftwood

carved by the lake's lathe 


old lumber dock bones

like cypress kneed bogs 

watching memories and

time float by like logs


trash ornated surf

flecks of green and blue

silver metal can

a child's soggy shoe


assonance that makes 

an ass of me and you

oops, that's assumption

that I sometimes do


twinkling in the sun

mirrored sand beach

pass the Swiss cheese please

just beyond my reach


gritty on my teeth

from palm full of sand

universe of verse

trickling through my hand


I could write always

by eloquent sea

what better way to

spend eternity?


got my cheese and pen

who could want for more?

my man at my side

on Michigan's shore








If wishes were drinks we drunks would partake


peach bellini moon 

purple crow flies by 

pink Cosmo sunset  

in blue curacao sky


if wishes were drinks

we drunks would partake

of rainbow cocktails

and Sazerac cakes


but day is all done

color drained away 

like bathtub sloe gin

sunsets turned grey


but no one told them

arise and go home

are they asleep or

perhaps turned to stone?


sunbathing bodies

strewn along the beach 

shrouded in moonlight

their marble arms reach 


in homage to a god

with empty hole eyes

gems all removed for 

the lady who buys


back to the motherland

with her stolen hoard

on a tramp steamer 

and ghost crew on board 


and the ship goes down

taking all to their graves

the gal with the money

drowns beneath the waves


so goes paradox 

she who had has none

the thief is stolen 

by the stolen from one


such contradiction

in poetic irony 

what goes comes around

and washes out to sea 


cold as equator

wet as Sahara

dry as ocean deep

hot as the taiga


uniform contrasts 

mixed hyperbole 

same differences 

fluid simile


lyric without song

sensibly insane

musically tone deaf

Logically inane 


I shall never see 

verse so madding bad

I think that I shall

surely go quite mad


if mad is a place 

say that's where I'll be

but I shan't be long 

I'll be back for tea 


hopped a streetcar

just my cat and me

at the corner of 

Desire and Cemetery 


singing for sixpence 

on my ukulele 

puss strums the bass in

land of Honah Lee 


puff with the dragon

huff to the wolf moon

supping with devils

I'll use the long spoon 


riding the contrail 

to the end of the line

pull up a cloud 

right here next to mine


ask where I'm off to 

it's a ramblin song 

don't know myself yet

you can sing along 


start psychedelic

Sam, Bangs and, Moonshine

let her write herself 

this lil rhyme of mine

 

a pocketful of pocket

to pass the time of night

white noise machine 

to ward off my blight


so no point to my

silly pantomime

just felt like conversin'

if you've got the time









The Good Ship Marguerite L. and the Freighter D. Jack

My grandparents, Marguerite Louise (Kik) Kinney and D. Jack Kinney, were laid to rest many moon ago. Here's a little ditty I wrote in honor of their 70 years together. It's about two ships--the imperiled freighter D.Jack and a once fancy schmancy old ghost yacht the Marguerite L. The ships are named because my grandpa was a workaholic, like the mighty lake Michigan freighters.  And my grandma loved expensive things. And could have posed as a figurehead! 

It is ironic that in the poem, she saves him. Everyone always called Grampa the romantic Galahad, the rescuer, the savior all of which he was. Grandma appeared the frail lightweight but was in fact tough as a battle axe and 10x more incisive.

It is set in Lake Michigan, where my Grandpa and I swam and walked many miles over many years (while Grandma stayed home and read Architectural Digest). This poem is for my father D. Jack Kinney II, who knew all there was to know about the ships of Lake Michigan and who liked a good story.

The Good Ship Marguerite L.


stranglehold cold wind

mutes dull foghorn moan

banshee storm-ghoul's shriek

deafens warning groan


weakened lighthouse beam

struggling to sustain

snuffed in fog-clogged night

and vision-dimming rain


Embattled Freighter D. Jack

seeks safe, havening moor 

refuge from the storm

heads blindly toward shore


solid blank stare fog

lightless night darks drear

no moon marking rocks

sailors think all's clear


no fog gong foretells

dimmed lighthouse mocks

no death- knell warning

sailors off the rocks


beamless empty sky

deadly barrier ahead

ships smashed to bits

tale ends with all dead


blame the deafening blind fog 

curse the storm that rent the night 

sing of D. Jack's end and gloom 

blame the waning of the light


but tale's end is not yet writ

fate not sealed in lake tomb

sad's the song that ends too soon

ill's the wind that blows but doom


there is another verse to

this sorrowful rhyme

in the wings a heroine

is waiting for her line


within rock walls is calm

without tempest's brewin

bony schooner, Marguerite L.

sleeps moored in brooding ruin


by good fairy or bad sprite

Neptune's guide or Hades' shade

sends storm ripples into port 

rouses ghost ship to their aid


sleeping beauty wakes again

hears the S.O.S across the wave

though old, frail, falling apart

there are sailors she must save


with bump-booms, banging clangs

plays hornpipe on rusted chains

grind-jangle, rattle and clank

screams louder than the rains


by happy stroke of luck

or black magic rune

D. Jack harks danger

in her warning tune 


The rocks are avoided

The freighter finds a way

round the hidden breakers

ghost yacht has saved the day.


what genius loci possessed

Marguerite L. that night?

to rise up from death bed 

and take up the good fight?


sailor is a brother,

to seamen in all clime

Do some come back to warn 

just in the nick of time?

How to write mystery stories and whodunnits: detective story starters and mystery writing prompts

March is National Reading Month. Mystery readers, are you tired of cracker-bland mysteries you put down in sheer boredom? Mystery writers, are you sick of writing dull-as-plain-toast plots that readers barely nibble at? Here are mystery story starters for tales readers will gulp down whole and beg for more before the first even digests. Use these writing prompts and mystery story starters to write can't-put-down stories. This article covers detective stories and mystery story starters for crime fiction, affectionately called the whodunit. 

Basics of mystery story starters. Every mystery story needs an introduction, characters, plot, climax, denouement and conclusion. Detective stories are all about detail and sequence. But crime fiction doesn't necessarily need resolution and closure--a very effective literary device is to leave mystery unsolved. Charles Dickens was known for writing several endings and letting the readers choose (!) Ending on a cliff-hanger has the advantage of paving the way for sequels and more sequels. 

Plot development for detective stories. There are different school of thought on whether mystery fiction writing prompts should start with character or setting creation. Settings seem the best as they give a framework to place other elements in. Regardless, always write what you know. If you grew up in Michigan in the 1940's or Mozambique in the 1990's, write to that specific knowledge. Use your cultural or religious background or family history. Don't try to write about what you don't know unless you plan to do a barge-load of research. 

Choose a known time period and locale. You can set your story in any time period or place, as long as you know enough about it to make your mystery story credible. If your idea of medieval life is Game of Thrones, probs best to avoid the middle ages. This author once tried to write a 1930s English country house murder mystery like her hero Ngaio Marsh. Without having lived then and lacking enough research, the result was a schmaltzy pastiche. Mystery story starters require a specific setting. Where did the whodunit take place? 

Write mystery stories outside the hackneyed setting. So having said know the terroir, don't use overused places. Thinking of Scooby-Doo here--an abandoned mental hospital, a disused school, onboard a ship, country mansion are common (dead common) places. Try to get away from stereotypical mystery settings if possible. Tie it to your own locale so you can envision the details better (the disused factory on Third St that you drive by every day, the historic St. Adalbert's Catholic Church you attend, for example). Be precise but not trite in description--setting drives mystery stories more than any other genre. 

To detect or not, your choice. Mystery fiction stories may or may not include a detective character. Agatha Christie's best-loved mystery story "And Then There Were None" is crime fiction with no solver of the crime. Whodunit detective stories obviously require a detective-type main character. But it may or may not be a police officer or private eye. Start thinking characters, beginning with the investigator if there is one.. Match an appropriate person to setting. Your detective can be of any age, strata of society, occupation or nationality as long as you can write with some authority. 

Mystery Writing prompts for detective stories main character. How will your detective interact with official authorities? Is he a policeman or a PI? Is she an amateur crime-solver like Miss Marple? Does she solve mysteries as a hobby, but assist with investigations? Maybe he hasn't always been on the side of justice., such as Father Brown's friend Flambeau once the greatest jewel thief in Europe, turned detective. Perhaps your detective operates separately from public investigators or is too young to work professionally (like the Three Investigators, Nancy Drew or the Hardy Boys). Your detective may have a different occupation altogether: librarian, cleric, rabbi, pharmacist, garbage man (trash collectors see lots of dirty secrets). Lillian Jackson Braun's series "The Cat Who..."features a cat detective! 

Plot writing prompts for detective mystery stories: Frame the crime. It may involve a celebrated murder, international heist or art theft or it may be a local incident that affects only certain people. Maybe it's just an odd occurrence that unravels a larger problem. It could be a victimless crime fiction but victims make it more interesting. Details about what happened should come out little by little. The detective should be lead on a few wild goose chases by "red herrings" finding out whodunit. 

Outline and sequence the problem. Create a timetable for personal reference and draw a map of the crime scene and environs. These become the plot, but you can also add your map to the book. This mystery reader loves it when authors provide maps. Even if it's just a map of the study showing doors, furniture etc. I have trouble visualizing from verbal directions so this really helps me "see" the scenario. 

Detective story characters writing prompts: People the story. Who are the dramatis personae? Flesh out characters. Determines criminals, witnesses, suspects, accessories and assistants. Perhaps it's passengers and airplane crew, or members of a club or secret society in which the whodunit occurs. That narrows the field. Again, describe with accuracy and details but avoid stereotypes and tropes: beautiful, curvy blonde, hard-bitten detective, frail old man. Also keep the cast of suspects down to about 8-10 max. It's too difficult to keep plot lines clear otherwise. 

Detail writing prompts. Scatter some clues. Toss in subtle details that a witness may notice and mention to the detective, but not understand. Don't have the detective pick up on it right away. Readers love to catch things the detective originally misses but don't make it obvious. General clues are okay but try to spice them up. Tire marks could be from certain vehicle. Character clues--unique buttons from uniforms, grandfather's cuff links, Mrs. Highbrow's jewelry, a girl's personal perfume--could lead in one direction but be left by someone else. A smell of curry might have been planted to frame the Indian gentleman. These are called a red herrings and are useful if not too obvious. Also, don't make clues so complicated that only an expert would understand them. Don't dumb down or get too rarefied. 

Identify the MMO: Every crime is based motive, method and opportunity. The motive is the reason a character might have for committing a crime (money, jealousy). The method is how the crime committed (think Clue here--in the garage with a tire iron). The opportunity means who was available to have committed the crime. 

Identify the alibis (or lack thereof) for characters. According to the timetable, decide who was where and when at the time the problem occurred or crime was committed. The detective may remove someone from the suspects list and then re-add them as she finds new information. It really does work to make the criminal the least likely person, perhaps someone hovering in the background or someone who isn't who she claims to be. 

Write a climax. Generally, something intense happens which brings all the events together. It's usually an event of some drama, seemingly unrelated, with some element of surprise. You might include death, danger or disaster. It is this event that ultimately explains the mystery. There should be an explanation for why she did it, but it doesn't have to make sense. Grudges, scores settled, paybacks usually have deep roots. As the saying goes "old sins cast long shadows." 

Allude to solution, earlier on. Once you have your conclusion, be sure you hinted at it previously, but in a not obvious way, such as by something a character said or let slip. It's not fair to the reader, who is trying to solve the puzzle themselves, to have something completely unforeseen resolve the issue. It's cheating. My favorite plot devices are when children or previously discounted people (visually impaired teen, "senile" elderly person,, developmentally disabled man, "hysterical" woman) have said something that the detective overlooks (Miss Marple wouldn't) which come back to be helpful. 

Write your denouement: This is the resolution of the mystery. This is when secrets come out and loose ends are wrapped up. Some details will reveal themselves in the plot and your detective can articulate the rest: the what, who, when, where, how and why. Or, as was discussed before, you can leave some loose ends hanging, some questions unanswered. If the crime is wrapped up, summarize with a short conclusion on the outcome. As readers part company with the detective, you might even give a few hints about her next adventures, Be sure to read a few detective stories for inspiration

They put a black rose on my door

I don't talk about this much but today just seemed right to share my motherache. We lost both our 5th and 6th child, the last of our children, both girls, to separate in utero trauma. I have pictures of them but they are too vulnerable to share. The skin had not fully formed yet, and it makes me feel I need to protect them all the more. 

But they had little wrinkles on their knuckles. Seeing that was like a grapefruit spoon to the heart, or whatever part it is that hurts so bad when you see a tiny helpless being, your being, who you would give the world for and whom you can do nothing to save. A person who should grow up to annoy and worry you, but won't. 

Both little ladies were ironically the same gestational age when they passed away. But their causes of death were different. And we never found out what exactly happened with either. Here's more on that and a poem I wrote for Mary Therese. 

I got an infection, I think Strep B, no one ever said, with my Mary Therese. My water broke. She was alive and kicking right up to the end as my fluid leaked out and there wasn't a thing I could do to stop it. The doctor didn't catch it in time and it was mostly gone when he did. 

I felt when the fever broke and Mary Therese kissed me goodbye. I almost voluntarily checked myself out of life that day. I had a loving husband and darling children. But the pain burned so bad I thought it would devour me. Then Our Lady sent St. Teresa of Avila to talk sense into me. 

I know, it sounds insane. But I saw them both, plain as day. Maybe it was the delirium of the fever. Or the pain. It wasn't the drugs because I couldn't keep anything down. They would have let me have it because she was going to die anyway, they said. That could have been more tactfully said but I was past caring. 

And she did pass, but only after patiently keeping her mama company all that long, horrible night. The whole family was there, all night to say goodbye to baby sister. Big Sister Molly stayed awake the entire time and only fell asleep when Mary Therese left us to go to heaven. 

Maybe I just want to believe that heaven cares, that this is not the end, that I will hold my children again. You're darn right I do. Not much point in anything otherwise. 

They put a black rose on my door, in the maternity ward. To say, no baby here, nothing to see, just move along. 

Here's a poem I originally wrote for Associated Content for my little Mar. I wasn't ever going to name a baby after me, but somehow that name just seemed to fit her. Daddy wanted her to take part of Mama to heaven. Mary Therese's birthday and death day were January 5, 2001.

Waterlily Rose Maid

her eyes, green-gray, still waters, do not cry
not mirror nor window of soul-dark spaces

guardians hold prisoner, secrets shy
in soft tranquil deep and twilight traces

her skin, like dogwood blossoms translucent 
rose petal fair and water-lily pale 

heaven-bound as nimbus, storm-cloud spent 
fresh as a lamb, nested quiet in vale

no tears descend this tender, pallid cheek 
no sorrow escapes this unworldly maid 

no companion shares nor solace does seek 
perfect in slumber, unmoving and staid

Silent in her grave, somber and death-cold 
Never to feel pain, nor warmth of mother's arms enfold.

I wrote this a few years ago, in a darker place. Now I know that you will feel our arms, baby. I think in some way you already do. 

Love always, mama. 

Quirky verse of write and wrong

(This is Mord. Mord judges. He also forgets to wind in his tongue. We like Mord, judgmental dweeb that he is.)










wrong or right 

good or bad

down or up

happy or sad


upside right

wrong side out

topsy turvy 

smile or pout


why'm I asking

what's it about?

seeking answers

or confirming doubt?


maybe answers 

aren't wrong nor right

perhaps the questions 

aren't black or white?


lets flip queries

so answers come round

or we may find no 

answers to be found


what say we mix 

contrasts a bit

reframing them not

as polar opposite 


the snarky zebra

in a poem by Shel

parsed the dilemma

I thought quite well


on color of stripe

was he white on black

or black against white

he retorted back


are you good with bad 

or mostly the latter?

Happy with sad times

and does it matter


I'm a bit of both

in my wide open mind

and all of the above

plus some undefined


rage with spendour

sun alongside rain

round with sharp edges

going against the grain


angst and sangfroid

going slowly fast 

arrive to depart

first things come last


then the puzzle of

lexicology 

rewording rightly

to order priority


not right or wrong 

but help or harm 

within or withheld

left cold or kept warm


of conjunctions 

carefully choose 

and, but, or matter

which one you use


safe and secure

cherished and dear

mother and child

no room for "or" here


to bring it all round

let's end with fun

in silly contrasts 

here's the first one


pond scum green, do not drink

child's tights in sky blue pink

plaid jumper with odd socks

day-glo night of diamond ink


so much for my write and wrong

here ends sermon and the song

I'd more to say but I forgot

next time won't you sing along











The ceremonial supper summoning dance

All is calm in the house

save keyboard klackety-kiss

no creature was stirring 

ah sweet peaceful bliss



then thump-whump tippy tap

pitter kitty -pat-pats

meorowy serenade 

of hungry little cats


Their litany opens with 

ritual dinner dance

summoning food gods with

tandem ceremonial prance 


paw two three four swish

up two three four bump

minor fall,  major lift

arabesque counter jump


gratuitous reminder nips

and clawing of the knees

less of the Grand Guignol

dear brutes if you please


snapping "it's only half past"

you cant' be hungry yet

if I feed you early 

that is all that you get"


oh, very well, have at it

in life three things abide 

death, taxes and needy cats

from them you cannot hide


slipper shuffle scuffle 

opening tins with curses 

slop slup-glupped into dishes

shuffle back again to verses  


nom-nom noise of tucking in

to their stinky fish feasts

post-prandial bathing of

two silky furred beasts 


last roundy-round with knead

as they tenderize their beds

twin VW engines snoring 

as they rest weary heads 










Eulogy to today

sun flares in great Amen

as to netherworld she goes

cosmic beach ball on lake

leaving all a flaming rose 


sunset sky afterglow 

puce and vermillion red

solar consolation gifts 

signaling time for bed


Crown Royal purple night

blankets lake back dune

spring peepers greeting 

felt caterpillar cocoon


on mouse pillow willow

from snake eyelash depends

defying laws of gravity

as in mid-air it suspends


in forest fire swamp

gilt embroidered log

diamond crusted snails trail

glimmers in gemstone fog 


molasses deep groans

from velvet butter bells

bidding us good rest 

as the Last Post knells


day neatly folds herself

in envelope of night

never to be seen again

new one dawns with light


So I shall dedicate

this poem to today 

a wholly gestalt self 

thank you for your brief stay






Nightmare Carnival Macabre

don't need no tickets

for these carnival rides 

nor the circus big top

with the heaving insides


three rings of thrills

my own funfair midway

endless freakshow parade 

greets my end of day 


organ grinder monkey

on his hurdy-gurdy 

croons nightmare lullaby 

to the clown's calliope  


show starts the moment

I close my eyes and brain

sleep finds me caged

on circus animal train


swirling tilt-a-whirl 

Hurky, jerking, twerking

wits spun out of order 

by the octopus lurking 


wish it took money

for Ferris wheel seat

So I can get off

and find my own feet


the rides that begin

must come to an end

my mind loop-de-loop

just rounds another bend 


foot stuck on the track

and here comes the train

following the leader

round the carousel again


tartan skirt stuck fast

in spinning bar stool

gladiator winding me

up to play the fool


maybe it's the zipper 

a bolt's snapped at last 

never knowing where I am

or just what has me fast 


trapped by my bad arm

dragged along the ground

oh God here we go

on the Mary-go-round


see the little dolly dance 

and vomit on the floor

has she had enough, folks 

or shall we cry for more?


shout out Himalaya!

if you wanna go fast 

faces melt like cheese toast

in the mob whizzing past


stop the Gatling guns

of the shooting gallery

I want to get out now

no more firing on me


Now playing at cranes 

losing and never won

fed them all my coin

till I have not a one


who said this was fun 

why am in this place?

mirrors only leading to

more images of my face


tiny dancer twirls

for the girl who owns

revolves upon toes

crumbling her bones


ballerina coffined 

in the jewelry box 

entombed by the child

with keys to the locks


clown in the torn skirt

and the Mr. Punch mask

contorting balloon dogs

is his happy task


with this Pied Piper

marionette frog march

down tunnel of love

to hell's marble arch


beckoning with candy floss

so sweetly he does urge

behind Spartacus smile

we don't see his scrouge 


nightmares so violent

they threaten sanity

if I told they'd lock me

up and throw away the key


This started as a nature poem, sigh. 













 


On stopping by a diner with kids

Long road trip overtired crabby kids in need of sustenance, stopping by a diner on a snowy night in the middle of nowhere. A proper greasy spoon,  open 24 hours where the waitress is insulted if you call her a server and wears a proper waitress uniform with the orthopedic shoes. 

She's been serving people since before they put the new highway in, when the place was just called Truck Stop. She  doesn't hover asking how everything is tasting every 6 seconds but keeps your coffee fresh, filled and hot and remembers each order without writing it down. She calls you "Honey" and brings extra napkins and not just one but a dish of lemon wedges for the snooty oldest teen daughter's fancy schmancy water. 

Where truckers belly up to the lunch counter, perched on red vinyl covered stools you loved to spin on as a kid.  Chatting with the waitress behind the counter with the bubbler dispensers of of temptingly colored Hawaiian Punch and Orange Hi-C.  And the dessert case with individual pieces of Saran-wrapped cakes and pies. Men apologizing for accidentally making semi-crude references. But no one really minds and when your mouthy "behavior police" 9 y/o asks why he said that, you hiss-whisper "Because people just do sometimes. Mind your business, don't stare, and eat your supper." 

Tired men (it was just men back then, no judgement, just fact) who drive across the country and are just glad they got there in time for a slice of the rhubarb pie, special of the house. Smiling at the kids, offering them quarters for the gumball machine which you would rather they did not take and gum they need like a hole in the head. But you feel obliged to say yes, because no one wants to hurt the feelings of someone with such bonhomie. And golly he reminds you of your kooky uncle Bill, with his weirdly both cringy and endearing extraness-- may he rest in peace. 

Most of the kids eating eff all of the canned green beans you insisted they have with their meal. And  Ms. Teen Thang eating NOTHING BUT broccoli to spite you because she's mad you didn't stop where she wanted to. Or some such thing. It's so hard to keep track of what they are mad at you for at that age. 

And the rest filling up on French fries and pancakes drenched with syrup then eating the jelly out of the little plastic cartons that the waitress set out for the breakfast crowd. And kids playing with salt and accidentally spilling it . And copying their father putting creamers in his eyes and saying "take me to your leader!" Worse than the children! Kids begging for ice cream with half their pancakes uneaten. The little one eating French fries off the floor. And the grandiose teen glaring at everyone. 

Mom and dad unwinding over their coffee and hot turkey sandwiches, relaxed by food and warmed by the cozy, grilled onion ambiance. Just kind of letting the kids' chaos happen a little. No one seems to mind. Leaving the waitress an astonishingly big tip to thank her for putting up with you all. And then she comes and tells you you have the best behaved kids she's ever seen and brings them free ice cream anyway. And the kids smirking at you over their chocolate mustaches. 

Hang on to these times. Savor the memories like syrup drenched pancakes. They're gone before you even realized they were there. 

In memory of a diner called Truck Stop along U.S. 2 in Michigan's  U.P. And a waitress named Barb who charged us whole pie price rather than individual pieces for everyone which would have cost twice as much. And bringing out a massive commercial size whipped topping thingy, to boot.  And Molly, (the snooty teen) serves you right your broccoli was overcooked and you went hungry. You should have had the chicken like we said. 

Poetry metacognition

I've been asked a lot where 
I get ideas for my poems and 
I don't know how to answer without
sounding fatuous or enigmatic 
or precious and tiresome 

To say I don't know is truth and lie
Can you know and not know
Or maybe you don't recognize
till you do and then you knew
you knew it all along? 

So I just start writing and see where it goes
Usually I end up more scribe than author
for there is an impetus I can't name 
that drives my thoughts and my pen
like spirit writing advertised at seances


What I've learned is that poems 
don't come from the atmosphere 
they don't grow on a tree like
ripe peaches waiting to be picked
if anything, poems pick you 

Mine come from muscle memory
and kneejerk responses and too long
silenced grief and frustration and 
feelings forced into tiny envelopes 
that can't hold them and split 

like a rug you stumble over because
too much junk has been swept under it
then you pick yourself up, dust yourself off
purge the clutter and walk smoother
more confident in your picture frame

and joy too big and bold and bombastic
earth splitting, ear shattering love 
what is and what could have been
what was and is, now and then and never

tiny nonpareils of peace sprinkled 
on fairy cakes at a child's tea party
where the grownups are drunk 
and raging and chaotic 
still we sip our tea and smile

Poems source from my mind tree's trunk 
and course through me like sap in heartwood
They're don't come from or through, they are me.  
They advocate for me 
they are my ambassadors 

Some verse bursts like a lanced boil
others leak out in weeping you can't hide
some bubble up like a well tapped
others sit and stew, marinating till
the time comes for them to speak out 

One thing I know for sure is you 
have to write when it's time. Don't push down
go big and deep and loud. Say stuff that 
might sound silly. Don't just say it, 
spray it like a huge graffiti mural

Don't let the hakken-kraks hush you 
don't second-guess or back down
it's poetry and there are no wrong ones
save those you don't give voice
that would be the real tragedy 















To rhyme is sublime and to not is fine


gonna try to break the rhyming

and the syllable counting habit 

so I can get my thoughts to coalesce

like turmeric and coriander bloomed in oil

more robust and diffuse and less restricted


rhyming can be a girdle worn

to compress or shrink ideas into 

tight boxes, but like Mexican  jumping beans

it may not flow in stricture of parsing 

in sound byte and measured stanzas



Rhyme isn't critical to  poetry

I mean look Williams' famous ditty

"this is just to say" about the plums

it was a note left on a fridge 

like an accidental scrap 


I didn't use to verse found it too tedious

but once begun my mind can't stop 

(Even now I'm seeking rhyme for tedious)

it's like you forget your mother tongue

by learning another language 


and having said that, rhyme is good discipline

it makes me struggle to find partners words 

and counting syllables gives a nice rhythm

poetry worth writing should come with 

some wrestling and head scratching and a few curses


It does however mean that I must forgo

words I'd really like to use because 

they don't fit, like a can that holds the door

open because it is proud of the shelf


But (there are lots of buts) that

too, stretches me to find that 

chef's kiss word to nail the dish

like the spice you didn't know was missing till you did



I test drive countless words to 

hit the flavor I'm seeking 

it might take Edison's 3,000 tries 

but when you get the filament right, you know

and the whole thing lifts and takes off

and lights up the night

Steaming down from Birmingham one cold December day


in the shrine of the pine

in murky backdune gloam

last call for this train

as it steams us on home


we're going deep tonight 

on lonesome railroad ride

find your seat, ticket please

bound for the other side


listen to her rumble as 

she croons to hobo's squall 

earth mother locomotive 

sharing herself with us all 


Serdeczna Matko dear

so beloved it hurts to sing

Don't know much about you

perhaps we've met in passing?


load-bearing ferry-woman 

carries her children safely home

Gaia, our goddess mama 

will never leave us alone 


many images of mother

mashed like praties inside me 

I'll have to go way rogue 

to get me any clarity 


choo-choo train and deity 

my Immaculata lady 

can anyone find my mama 

or a mama to love me?

 

I saw three ships come sailing

Father, son and Mother Mary 

steaming down from Birmingham

with shoulder rides for little me  


Mixing references like drinks

upon this night-night train

is the only way to make sense

of my mashed potato brain 


too cold to take off my coat

clacking away at my rhyme

cold that gets in your soul

and doesn't warm with the wine


feet like ice blocks carved 

from lake Michigan whole 

when they used ice tongs

which grampa found and stole 


(from the abandoned Swett place in the dunes long-forgotten. If they wanted 'em they should have taken them and they didn't so no harm done)


on highway made of steel

endless faceless porter men

no points, nor keeping score  

Will we ever see their kind again?


the railway's done and gone 

but a few ghosts I sill see 

of old men and their daughters 

rolling out of Kankakee. 


I'm the father and the daughter

my old man and the sea

Granddad and the porters on

the train they call Memory  


For my da and granda and my husband and his da and his granda and my boys and girls. And me. 



















A silly little rondo of song


trinkle tinkle ring says 

the wind in the chime 

singing through the trees

in the chapel of the pine


to the belfry tower

hear bells grumble rumble

chanting out their prayers

in baritone choir mumble 


to the white steeple tall 

one ringer all alone 

on church in the vale

pulls his funeral tone 


to glockenspiel in park

mazurka herky jerk

xylophone frilly trill 

for dancers of clockwork


to the lady with harp

on a promenade pier 

gently caressing strings

for little kids to hear 


to children's kitchen band 

on kazoo and oatmeal drum

and kleenex box fiddles 

do loudly pluck and strum


to the bird in the tree 

in our yard in her nest 

tweets last post and chorus 

as we all head in to rest 


back round the music plays

full circle to the chime 

it all begins and ends again

in our chapel of the pine


(picture is a gate-crasher at our nightly orchestral hijinks. But welcome none-the-less). 















Thank you for reading

Thank you to all who read

my funny ramblings of mind

I don't know who you are

nor if we're two of a kind


perhaps you stumbled here

by inadvertent mistake  

then found you some comfort

and thought a rest to take


the reason for the reading

is not for me to tell 

just know you're most welcome 

to stop and bide a spell 


Pardon our dust, scattered

ideas like crumbs everywhere

Fragments of markings strewn 

hang on, I'll clear a chair


so what shall we speak of

tho if you've questions, I fear

I'm better at clacking keys 

than speaking thoughts clear


I don't explain my poems

and I will never defend 

read or leave as written 

on that I will not bend


They are surely imperfect 

I do not disagree 

but I stand by them because

they've always stood by me


So if you're here to browse

if you seek no fault to find

then sit down and grab a pen

and jot down what's on your mind. 





 








The printing press in the workshop in the basement



certain phrases have their say

in my poems frequently 

more than mere lexicon 

they're my spirit vocabulary 


black as printer's ink 

a simile I often use

meaning more than it says

exposing more than I'd choose












ink's only black in print and

black ink isn't black you see

it's a rainbow-hued spectrum 

revealed by chromatography


I only discuss the science

to distract from the memory 

of basement press and printer

making little name cards for me



letterpress cabinet drawer 

with names like copperplate bold

tiny metal characters neatly stored

such wondrous order to behold. 


Upon the composing stick 

he'd arrange moveable type

tempting trays forbidden me

about that I did often gripe 


typesetting print to read

was technology back then

the typewriter's clacking keys 

replacing human hand and pen 


now we push buttonless buttons

a mystery I can't comprehend

touch screens are now touchless

instead of mailing we say "send." 


now we don't write we "text"

instead of talking we "interface"

we talk to boxes not friends

connected in cyberspace


computers are nice compared 

to messy loud  printing press

or typewriter's many headaches

digit-less digital is less stress


we've got to look forward and

Grampa would be first to agree

looking only backward you miss 

all the cool new things to see 


But (there's always one) we still 

found something gestalt in the press

though always covered in ink

it' was a "type" of mood therapy I guess 


I often mind walk in the workshop  

down in Crestwood Memory Lane 

to sort, if allowed, his letterbox

I will never see the like again


Pictures from Wikipedia user https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/User:Trimalchio and Willi Heidelbach. 












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