Where the Insane find Asylum



A funny little fellow 

El Chupacabra 

some say he's macabre 

I see a candelabra 


playing word shell games

showing sides we've never seen

like Beauty and the Beast

Frights become a figurine 


drawing fear in caricature

how lovely that would be

paint by number devils 

shrunk dimensionality 


Proposing a toast, I raise 

a glass of Frivoli-Tea

in champagne bubble fizz

our horrors float out to sea


Shall I begin with mine?

imagine a demon dance

now pull the puppet strings

and watch them lose their pants


that's how we do it, folks 

in the nightmare parade

just keep on lampooning 

till your terror starts to fade. 


Now it's your turn to pick

your phobia to minimize

color him panto and watch 

him dissolve before your eyes


Blessings from the Hoo Hoo Hotel where all us insane find asylum. 






Worshipper at the Ego Altar


softly, softly the child knelt

secondhand coat and used shoes

ever the repentant 

in those hard wooden pews 


tear-jerked remorse

wept the girl with no name 

dutifully answering 

when the altar call came 


a shiny pulpit man

denounced wages of sin

in his fancy blue suit 

beats his Bible again


so I trembled in fear

at his angry homily

and the vengeful God

with little use for me


yet first finger pointing

all wicked folk do

seems you forgot, friend

four point back to you


the church blame shame game

played the fool so well 

their preach without practice

the no show only tell 


What happened to Jesus?

in this gospel you teach

reserving for yourself 

what you place out of reach


The inn is still filled 

at the Entitlement Arms

you think God's fooled by

your snake oil and charms? 


Just admit you've no room

in your high ground above 

you withhold while claiming

all his mercy and love


but the girl still worships

at your ego altar 

absorbing your shame

that you heap upon her


betrayal blindness kept

this trauma bonded slave 

no amount of contrition

can the tied soul save


so confessing is moot 

don't know wrong from right 

if I'm ever a sinner 

then I can't see the light












 






Face First in the Schnauzer's Dish


Once upon a wasted on 

Bacardi Dark and Dry

woke up in Schnauzer's dish

with kibble bits in my eye


sounds like the punchline 

of many cruel jokes 

it's my awkward truth  

being honest here, folks


alternative was friend's bed

my creepy ex crawled in 

no idea what happened

that's the way of rum and gin 


odd juxtaposition 

boozing church youth group event

paradoxical context 

but that's how back then went


recession depression 

nothing to do, be or go 

useless cornfield burnout

not even wild oats to sow


oh the morning rumpus

when they came down to dine

welcome sign reversed to me

self-respect in tatters mine 


yes the floor was safer 

place to lay my head 

where were pointing fingers

when my ex snuck into bed? 


and this was not my norm

excelling on half a chance

pressured to be perfect

despite crap circumstance 


why did church folk ignore

neglectful parents' abuse 

Kicked out, homeless at 16? 

so who bought us the booze?


why did no one mention

they were all wasted too

I had nowhere to go 

so what's a girl to do?


that was then, this is now

oceans and eons between

can't ever understand 

the crazy never seen


from a moral high horse

it's easy to cast blame 

yet without vantage point

you might do just the same.


lacking hindsight vision

how to translate to you

you just had to be there 

it was all we all knew


I'd seen a lot by then

Black to Shambala light

but what the hell, said I

cooped up in rural blight


so judge me if you wish

her dog and parents sure did

but careful what you wish on

this explanation defiant kid


pathetic metaphor 

How often dog's dish found me

faceplanted by family 

unjust poetic irony


Yanked pillory to post 

Whizzing through the roundabout

like a shame-drunk sailor 

puking up guilt and self-doubt


so maybe just for once 

my drunk fail was a choice

bitching out reality 

hella way to find your voice














Melodrama Drag Queen


trauma shame triggered

how are you today?

one simple question 

don't know what to say


answer honestly?

how dare you admit 

way too sensitive

just get over it


don't be Deb downer 

Melodrama drag queen

zip your pain up tight

don't be heard or seen


no one wants your truth

just convenient lie 

wannabe preacher

sneers "but did you die?" 


arrogant posturing 

what did I expect?

demand but didn't 

earn or give respect 


you sermonize me

of minimizing 

You're a fine one to preach

the Exaggerate King 


you wanna talk courage?

bravely telling truth

I've died little deaths

daily since my youth


bled in many ways

by a 1000 cuts

honest conversation?

doubt you have the guts


we don't say, do we

how the killer was you

snuffing out my light

with darkness you do 


all you did was moan

finger pointing blame 

in your "Woe is Me" 

pity party game


that's how you distract

notice from your harm

be attention's center

keep that spotlight warm


same weary tune sung

about and by you 

ignore what you did

as you always do


you envy sunshine

but your fake's outshown

seen clearly behind 

the red flags you've flown


where does that leave me?

proverbial free bird

no longer encaged 

or haven't you heard?


singing she exited 

the gilded wire door

four words opened it

"I don't care anymore." 


shout all you want 

holler, cry or swoon

have fits of vapors 

howl at the blue moon


I am gone, said she.

as she flew away 

I've found my voice 

I shall sing today. 








Love bomb Limerence


love bomb limerence

vicious circle game

devalued discard 

always ends the same 


around mulberry bush

Pocketful of pox 

looping rosy ring 

puppet in the box 


coiled up so tight

crumpled under lid 

tensed for button push

blind, deaf, mute and hid


stored untreasured

animation suspends

kept frozen on ice 

bad case of the bends


in love or obsessed?

self-imposed deity

longing to belong 

no reciprocity 


you were the cat's paw

they stole what you earned 

all the hot chestnuts 

while you got burned


you were just the bait

dangling on a hook 

gone a cat-phishing 

drowning in the brook 


my advice to you

choose yourself today

get the hell out of Dodge

run to, not away 


The tie that binds is

trauma bonded knit

crocheted to keep you 

mummified in it 


swim out of the net 

to see more clearly 

in rear view mirror 

cardboard family 


high tail out of there

without backward glance

find your own meow 

while you got a chance









Ragtime Ranthem


insane pain, brain drain

Solipsist Soliloquy

their ragtime ranthem

serio-tragi-comedy 


parents born under 

the narcissist sign 

trauma Zodiac

bespoke abuse mine


scar tissue face from

arrogant acid spray 

my gas mask taken

and given away 


must rescue others 

while they watch me drown

bite my bleeding tongue 

choking the tears down


deafening silence

after slamming door 

can find my way out

but can't breathe anymore 


how to wash them out 

of my broken mind

like blood-stained dress

no cleansing I find 


I cry to heaven

operator please 

give me comforting

balm for my soul's ease 


if my cry falls on 

more hard-hearted ears

I'll run to lake's rest

where all sorrow clears






Liquid Platinum and Lightning Lake


gold dune sand blowout

inscribed with staircase

resting on log bench 

pausing frantic chase 


wind biting down but

in a friendly way 

like my two lap cats 

nipping just to play 


autumn forest shades

juicy apple red

lemon mandarin 

in plum wine is wed


pebble jeweled sands 

winking at themselves 

precious treasure trove 

for gem mining elves


upon monkey bars

climbs the lake-eyed boy

up and down he goes 

in self-contained joy 


comes the hurried wave

lunging at the beach

then running away 

always out of reach 


ever moody lake

with too much to do

were it me, I'd be 

tempestuous too 


sun upon the seas

casts her fractal rays

liquid platinum 

lightning color days 


big lake dwells within

every little stone 

with a piece of beach 

you're never alone 


here's a pretty one

I found yesterday

I shall treasure this

liquid platinum day 

















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