On stopping by a diner with kids (unfiltered)

Long road trip overtired crabby kids in need of sustenance, stopping by a diner on a snowy night in the middle of nowhere. A proper greasy spoon,  open 24 hours where the waitress is insulted if you call her a server and wears a proper waitress uniform with the orthopedic shoes. 

She's been serving people since before they put the new highway in, when it was just called Truck Stop. She  doesn't hover asking how everything is tasting every 6 seconds but keeps your coffee fresh, filled and hot and remember, each order without writing it down. She calls you "Honey" and brings extra napkins and not just one but a dish of lemon wedges for the snooty oldest teen daughter's water. 

Where truckers line bar stools chatting with the waitress behind the counter with the bubbler dispensers of of temptingly colored Hawaiian Punch and Orange Hi-C.  And the dessert case with individual pieces of cakes and pies. Men apologizing for accidentally making crude references. But no one really minds and when the mouthy behavior police 9 y/o asks why he said that, you say because people just do sometimes. Mind your business, don't stare it's rude and eat your supper. 

Tired men who drive across the country and are just glad they got there in time for a slice of the rhubarb pie, special of the house. Smiling at the kids, offering them quarters for the gumball machine which you would rather they did not take and gum they need like a hole in the head. But you feel obliged to say yes, because no one wants to hurt the feelings of someone with such bonhomie. And golly he reminds you of your kooky uncle Dave, may he rest in peace. 

Most of the kids eating fuck all of the canned green beans you insisted they have with their meal. And snooty teen eating NOTHING BUT broccoli to spite you because she's mad you didn't stop where she wanted to. Or some such thing. It's so hard to keep track of what they are mad at you for at that age. 

And the rest filling up on French fries and pancakes drenched and syrup then eating the jelly out of the little plastic cartons that the waitress set out for the breakfast crowd. And kids playing with salt and accidentally spilling it . And copying their father putting creamers in his eyes and saying "take me to your leader!" Worse than the children! Kids begging for ice cream with half their pancakes uneaten. The little one eating French fries off the floor. And snooty glaring at everyone. 

Mom and dad unwinding over their coffee and hot turkey sandwiches, relaxed by food and warmed by the cozy, grilled onion ambiance. Just kind of letting the kids' chaos happen a little. No one seems to mind. Leaving the waitress an astonishingly big tip to thank her for putting up with you all. And then she comes and tells you you have the best behaved kids she's ever seen and brings them free ice cream anyway. And the kids smirking at you over their chocolate mustaches. 

Hang on to these times. Savor the memories like syrup drenched pancakes. They're gone before you even realized they were there. 

In memory of a diner called Truck Stop along U.S. 2 in Michigan's  U.P. And a waitress named Barb who charged us whole pie price rather than individual pieces which would have cost twice as much. And bringing out a massive commercial size whipped topping thingy, to boot.  And Molly, serves you right your broccoli was overcooked and you went hungry. You should have had the chicken like we said. 

Poetry metacognition

I've been asked a lot where 
I get ideas for my poems and 
I don't know how to answer without
sounding fatuous or enigmatic 
or precious and tiresome 

To say I don't know is truth and lie
Can you know and not know
Or maybe you don't recognize
till you do and then you knew
you knew them all along? 

So I just start writing and see where it goes
Usually I end up more scribe than author
for there is an impetus I can't name 
that drives my thoughts and my pen
like spirit writing advertised at seances


What I've learned is that poems 
don't come from the atmosphere 
they don't grow on a tree like
ripe peaches waiting to be picked
if anything, poems pick you 

Mine come from muscle memory
and kneejerk responses and too long
silenced grief and frustration and 
feelings forced into tiny envelopes 
that can't hold them and split 

like a rug you stumble over because
too much litter has been swept under it
They source from my mind tree's trunk 
and course through my like sap in heartwood
They're don't come from or through, they are me.  

Some verse bursts like a lanced boil
others leak out in weeping you can't hide
some bubble up like a well tapped
others sit and stew, marinating this 
the time comes for them to speak out 

One thing I know for sure is you 
have to write when it's time. Don't push down
go big and deep and loud. Say stuff that 
might sound silly. Don't just say it, 
spray it like a huge graffiti mural


Don't let the hakken-kraks hush you 
don't second-guess or back down
it's poetry and there are no wrong ones
save those you don't give voice
that would be the real tragedy 















To rhyme is sublime and to not is fine

gonna try to break the rhyming

and the syllable counting habit 

so I can get my thoughts to coalesce

like turmeric and coriander bloomed in oil

more robust and diffuse and less restricted


rhyming can be a girdle worn

to compress or shrink ideas into 

tight boxes, but like Mexican  jumping beans

it may not flow in stricture of parsing 

in sound byte and measured stanzas




Rhyme isn't critical to  poetry

I mean look Williams' famous ditty

"this is just to say" about the plums

it was a note left on a fridge 

like an accidental scrap 


I didn't use to verse found it too tedious

but once begun my mind can't stop 

(Even now I'm seeking rhyme for tedious)

it's like you forget your mother tongue

by learning another language 


and having said that, rhyme is good discipline

it makes me struggle to find partners words 

and counting syllables gives a nice rhythm

poetry worth writing should come with 

some wrestling and head scratching and a few curses


It does however mean that I must forgo

words I'd really like to use because 

they don't fit, like a can that holds the door

open because it is proud of the shelf


But (there are lots of buts) that

too, stretches me to find that 

chef's kiss word to nail the dish

like the spice you didn't know was missing till you did



I test drive countless words to 

hit the flavor I'm seeking 

it might take Edison's 3,000 tries 

but when you get it right, you know

and the whole thing  lifts and takes off

and your heart sings

Steaming down from Birmingham one cold December day


in the shrine of the pine

in murky backdune gloam

last call for this train

as it steams us home


we're going deep tonight 

on lonesome railroad ride

 find your seat, ticket please

let's don't miss the other side


listen to her rumble as 

she croons to hobo's squall 

earth mother locomotive 

sharing herself with us all 


Serdeczna Matko dear

so beloved it hurts to sing

I don't know much about you

perhaps we've met in passing?


load-bearing ferry-woman 

carries her children safely home

Gaia, our goddess mama 

will never leave us alone 


many images of mother

mashed like praties for me 

I'll have to go rogue 

to get me any clarity 


choo-choo train and deity 

my Immaculata lady 

can anyone find my mama 

or a mama to love me?

 

I saw three ships come sailing

Father, son and Mother Mary 

steaming down from Birmingham

with shoulder rides for little me  


Mixing references like drinks

upon this night-night train

is the only way to make sense

of my mashed potato brain 


too cold to take off my coat

clacking away at my rhyme

cold that gets in your soul

and doesn't warm with wine


feet like ice blocks carved 

from lake Michigan whole 

when they used ice tongs

which grampa found and stole 


(from the abandoned Swett place in the dunes

long-forgotten. If they wanted 'em they should have taken them and they didn't so no harm done)


on highway made of steel

endless faceless porter men

no points, none keeping score  

Will we ever see their kind again?


the railway's done and gone 

but a few ghosts I sill see 

of old men and their daughters 

rolling out of Kankakee. 


I'm the dad and  daughter

my old man and the sea

Granddad and the porters on

the train they call Memory  


For my da and granda and my husband and his da and his granda and my boys and girls. And me. 



















A silly little rondo of song


trinkle tinkle ring says 

the wind in the chime 

singing through the trees

in the chapel of the pine


to the belfry tower

hear bells grumble rumble

chanting out their prayers

in baritone choir mumble 


to the white steeple tall 

one ringer all alone 

on church in the vale

pulls his funeral tone 


to glockenspiel in park

mazurka herky jerk

xylophone frilly trill 

for dancers of clockwork


to the lady with harp

on a promenade pier 

gently caressing strings

for little kids to hear 


to children's kitchen band 

on kazoo and oatmeal drum

and kleenex box fiddles 

do loudly pluck and strum


to the bird in the tree 

in our yard in her nest 

tweets last post and chorus 

as we all head in to rest 


back round the music plays

full circle to the chime 

it all begins and ends again

in our chapel of the pine


(picture is a gate-crasher at our nightly orchestral hijinks. But welcome none-the-less). 















Thank you for reading

Thank you to all who read

my funny blog of rhyme

I don't know who you are

nor if with them you chime 


perhaps you stumbled here

by inadvertent mistake  

then found you some comfort

and thought a rest to take


the reason for the reading

is not for me to tell 

just know you're most welcome 

to stop and bide a spell 


Pardon our dust, scattered

ideas like crumbs everywhere

Fragments of markings strewn 

hang on, I'll clear a chair


so what shall we talk about

tho if you've questions, I fear

I'm better clacking keyboard 

then verbalizing thoughts clear


I don't explain my poems

and I will never defend 

read or leave as written 

on that I will not bend


They are surely imperfect 

I do not disagree 

but I stand by them because

they've always stood by me


So if you're here to browse

if you seek no fault to find

then sit down and grab a pen

and jot down what's on your mind. 





 








The printing press in the workshop in the basement



certain phrases have their say

in my poems frequently 

more than mere lexicon 

they're my spirit vocabulary 


black as printer's ink 

a simile I often use

meaning more than it says

exposing more than I'd choose












ink's only black in print and

black ink isn't black you see

it's a rainbow-hued spectrum 

revealed by chromatography


I only discuss the science

to distract from the memory 

of basement press and printer

making little name cards for me



letterpress cabinet drawer 

with names like copperplate bold

tiny metal characters neatly stored

such wondrous order to behold. 


Upon the composing stick 

he'd arrange moveable type

tempting trays forbidden me

about that I did often gripe 


typesetting print to read

was technology back then

the typewriter's clacking keys 

replacing human hand and pen 


now we push buttonless buttons

a mystery I can't comprehend

touch screens are now touchless

instead of mailing we say "send." 


now we don't write we "text"

instead of talking we "interface"

we talk to boxes not friends

connected in cyberspace


computers are nice compared 

to messy loud  printing press

or typewriter's many headaches

digit-less digital is less stress


we've got to look forward and

Grampa would be first to agree

looking only backward you miss 

all the cool new things to see 


But (there's always one) we still 

found something gestalt in the press

though always covered in ink

it' was a "type" of mood therapy I guess 


I often mind walk in the workshop  

down in Crestwood Memory Lane 

to sort, if allowed, his letterbox

I will never see the like again


Pictures from Wikipedia user https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/User:Trimalchio and Willi Heidelbach. 












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