Dune spells, Cinnamon toasted


cinnamon toasted

cherry jam and ghee

memory's comfort food 

reminisce-story


coffee perfumed homes

warm me to my core

Uncle Bloke and Aunt Ann

with always open door


grama's dining room

only for company

I was not a guest

I was family


round kitchen table

solved life's mysteries

ate like a king or

better than majesties


grama's plenty-scented

refectory dine we

on mushroom pork chops

with onion gravy


je ne sais quoi whiff

with notes of Big Lake

so profoundly real 

little self doth ache


pine spice and hemlock

water and sand sun-bake

takes me right back to

their home on the lake


Sunday were for walks

in woodland with gramp

limber lost we two

in our lake dune tramp 


benevolent flavors 

from my evergreen queen 

peanut butter kisses

berries wintergreen 


only found in dune trough

mystical mist fog

signature oak scents 

of bike shaped log


tramping back home with

many a dune tale 

grama on the porch

the dog wags his tail 


braunschweiger toast and

sweet gherkins for tea

coffee for old folks 

a glass of milk for me


old memories clearer 

than yesterday I see

those two dear people

always wait for  me













In the Bleak Midsummer


in the bleak midsummer

winter still resides

cold descends my soul 

fever chills insides


irony of iron grey

within solar rays

shivering summer

dirty darkened days


sunrise sickens me

sun golden light drains 

to dishwater blonde

muddied by the rains


I ran to the dunes

perchance to find Zen 

but my lake turned away

I am cold again


frigid similes

frozen to the bone

funerary tomb 

in lichen color stone


time scrubbed the name

who in tomb does dwell

has all memory 

been erased as well?


my heart aches for her

it seems such a loss

All that's still living

is grave-crusted moss


I don't part well with

those beloved and passed

eternal rest prayed yet

my heart holds them fast


is that why my lake

calls then denies me 

Am I refusing them 

peaceful eternity? 


I don't mean to keep

them bound up to me

How to release them 

is a mystery


we're told to let go

I think that's fallacy

how can  I release

those with hold on me?


p'raps it goes deeper

this cold in my bone

to dank memory 

of all my alone 


pain like hand smashed

by door slammed on me

peering in a home

with no vacancy 


Theirs the backs turned

by family within 

windows shuttered tight

so I couldn't see in


now I see her smile

lake's arms open wide

but that doesn't melt my

permafrost inside 


is it black all over?

does dark dwell in me?

does this tunnel end?

is there light to see?


I like grey wet days

I do not mind mist

But I'd like to feel

my face by sun-kissed


bleak is for winter

black for a short day

I want the lemon 

yellow sun today


this poem isn't resolved

fresh out of great amen

not sure where it's going

it's just at the end












The guillotine kneeler-- a painfully humorous narrative

Every time I read the "humorous" tagline on a piece, I stress out. What if I don't get it? What if I'm too Philistine? Will the universe as we know it cease to exist? And if you think I'm neurotic about reading humor, I'm a buffet of trauma writing it. But here goes: my noir humorous narrative about my husband and the guillotine kneeler at church. 

Note: Those of you who are Catholic will know exactly what I mean, having probably had your shins injured on those garage-door heavy fold down kneeling benches on the backs of pews. And if the lowerer isn't careful (like the main character of this story) they come down with the force of a canal lock gate. The uninitiated should consider yourselves lucky. And wear shinty-grade leg guards if you visit. 

So a quick run down on how pew traffic is supposed to work. Individual or Group A enters pew, the kneeler is lowered for pre-mass prayers. The ideal plan of attack is that on a designated leader's count the group en masse lowers the kneeler after first doing a perimeter check for any feet blocking its descent.  This should be accomplished by signals, whispered consultations and consensus. Should. But often doesn't. 

If/when group B, C, D, etc. enters pew, group A (B, C) sits back, raises kneeler and allows them to pass. Then, kneelers come down, and back to obeisances. Why, you may be asking doesn't everyone move over? And it makes perfect sense, unless you understand another weird thing about Catholics. We guard the outer seats as if they were the Hope Diamond. I have seen people literally hug the upright pew end, while skewing their legs over to one side to make room, in this bizarre snake-like slither.  As if it is a pier and they are afraid they will be swept away.  

Sometimes, in clinging for dear life to the pew end, they forget to coordinate leg action. One leg slides while the other remains fixed ending up legs splayed wide as if in salacious invitation. The result can be pretty alarming to contemplate. I'll just let that mental image stew in your brain.

Then juxtapose being propositioned at church, with the open challenge glare, that just dares you to ask the pew Klingon to budge up. Trips to the confessional have been required after encounters such as these. And don't even get me started on confessional queue violations. 

But anyway, we get everyone in their seats, prayers said, and mass begins. But it's not over. Because one thing to remember, these kneelers are not just  used before mass. Oh no, that would be too simple and too safe. There are several times throughout the service in which those heavy benches descend on unwary legs. And this is where the blood sports begin. Because there are like four kneelers to a pew and now it's not just one Gruppenführer to contend with but several.  

And after last Palm Sunday, I have decided that my husband will not be that Gruppenführer. To start, he's not as careful as our feet and shins could wish. It's more like pull out and THEN look for cars. And hubby dearest was in rare form last Sunday. So mass was all discombobulated anyway, beginning with a procession outside, carrying our palms into the church. Which necessitated the raising and lowering of the kneeler as people were finding their seats again after the procession dispersal... thing. Because did my husband wait until all were seated to start praying? No he did not. I burned 200 calories before mass alone. 

Then enter a guy who was clearly as ADHD as my husband. First, he sat on my palm so I could not use it for the blessing. I had to share my husband's and instead of just letting me hold it too, hubs painstakingly separated it in half, slicing his finger in the process. And we haven't even gotten to the entrance antiphon. Then, neither pew-mate nor husband were paying attention at that ubiquitous kneeler lowering. Husband just guillotined it down with a thunk and I (the only one paying attention) had to kind of surreptitiously kick/push the man's foot out of the way to prevent crushing. This happened five times. The third with MY foot getting clobbered. 

Mass finally ended and my neighbor escaped unscathed no thanks to himself or my husband. But it wasn't over. I was temporarily off guard and husband came in with a blindside bench descent at the Eternal Rest prayers. I don't know what the poor clueless bloke had done to merit tarsal amputation.  Somehow our would-be hatchet man missed again but he definitely had an axe to grind and feet would roll. 

And most ironic of all, was husband's beatific face in prayer after nearly dismembering us multiple times. 

Pompeiian reverb


Pompeiian reverb
Form with no Function
Void reclining in
sleepless dormition

uncomfortably cramped
attitude of repose
I don't envy the model
this miserable pose





inverted geode doll
crystals inside out
vacancy within 
leaving all in doubt

where is the lady
in the gown of blue?
gone or just popped 
out to use the loo? 

who could blame the gal
who left her shell behind
lit out to find an
open state of mind?

cold bespoke casket
Rigid cloying mold
corseted to keep
cellulite on hold

escaped confines of
Spanxed conformity 
now wears old blue jeans
when she goes out to tea? 

perfection's a bitch 
reach exceeds our grasp
Venus de Milo curves
bite us in the asp

beauty's sepulcher
Snow White in her tomb
fair sex pilloried since
we were in the womb

pardon my cliches but
they're very real to me
man-made cages, jails, cells
dank familiarity 

expiring before 
we even begin
buried alive in
purpose built coffin

death eating father
brought the doom on me
honeyed hemlock of
morbid litany 

why the hell so smitten
with dames who are dead?
Pre-Raphaelite OCD
I'll bet she's a redhead

This maiden who left
empty dress echoing
glass still resonates
long after her going

I rejoice to see 
that this bird has flown
hollow lies the dress
of bondage glass blown

dragged herself out 
of bedragoned moat
our Lady of Shallot
good you ditched the boat

we'll hold space till you
Find functionality 
And if you don't well
keep on going, baby! 

Don't need ruby slippers
nor tight frocks of glass
to bust see-thru roofs 
you wrote your own pass

Oz only gave Dorothy
what she already owned
Emerald city exit
a balloon ride home 

Cinderella didn't
need shoes to break chains
didn't even need a Prince
just her head full of brains

I'll take a leaf from
departed sisters' book
to find my true north
in the mirror look.

Here's to our gone girls
Egalite! Sorority!
let's grab the brass rings,
ring that bell of liberty! 




This ekphrastic poem is based on Nocturne Reclining 3, by Karen LaMonte, shown above and on view at the Muskegon Museum of Art. Please visit and support local art museums! 















Tarmac Where My Wintergreen Berries Lived





I went back to the woods where I played 

with grampa in the dunes near the lake

My mother goddess Lake Michigan

or the big lake gitchegumme to locals 

this land was made for you and me


Houses sit and tarmac covers 

where my wintergreen berries lived 

drywall shacks that grew not from seed but 

chewed up, used up, spat out natural resources

post-industrial waste of too much muchness


too many structures holding too few people 

flimsy construction from destruction of 

the Great Spirit Gluskabe's stately dunes

irreplicable, irreplaceable, unshakable


until the diesel breathing monster machines came

gorging themselves on magnetite, hematite and quartz

of prehistory older-than-ice-age sands 

more non-renewable comrades fallen 

Avē Imperātor, moritūrī tē salūtant


Extinct is forever and gone is for good

it made sense of a sort when there were jobs, 

railroad, factories, newspapers, telephones 

neighbors and communities. America WAS Great

now it's just glutinous and grasping 


We build boxes to house bric-a-brac and junk

we buy too much of and don't need and

can't pay for and go bankrupt to have

and don't use and throw in landfills

already the size of small cities


useless crap to feed corporate and consumer greed

for things they will only destroy in a very short time

Woodsy used to say "give a hoot, don't pollute"

And we held hands and sang

if those poor owl could but see us now


ironic yard signs reading "no over development" 

in over developed sub divisions with landscaped

marram grass where it once grew wild

ripped out to replant in its native habitat

Why?


signs preaching "keep off the dunes"

in the yards built on trashed dunes 

and "dune preserve" preserved where?!

an asphalted over melted glacier Lake?

a concreted old growth back dune forest 

of pine, fir, Eastern hemlock, spruce, trillium


lady slippers, wintergreen, protective mosses 

oak, juniper, trilobite, petrified wood, fossils 

ground to wood chips to decorate lawns

that smothered animal habitats that grew

where leaves and needles once blanketed 


nothing remains except spent, sparse 

scraps of tree cremains left where they are 

till their spot is needed to build 

some family an even bigger house

And the Lorax laments on...

 

that they aren't going to use 

the divorce will be final before 

she moves in,  alone with her cat

kitchen larger than diners of childhood

sharing a cup they call loneliness


homes as large as tenement halls 

contrast the shotgun singles of my youth 

with a family of seven crammed 

to the gills under one roof, comfortably

homes that house families of families


two bedroom homes, not houses 

where people ate dinner at 5:30

around a Formica table in the kitchen

somehow they all miraculously fit 

chewing their knees with their rolls


now the huge kitchens are decorated

with cookbooks and spices no one uses 

and mass produced signs telling us to "Gather" 

in empty rooms with no one to comply

Seeger, Baez, Dylan, Peter, Paul and Mary warned us


There's an enormous dining room with

table big enough to seat the Love Boat crew

it's covered with packed boxes 

Each eats DoorDash in his room with 64" TV

Strangely Estranged, strangers called family


all that's in the commercial grade fridge 

which could hold food for a battalion

is vodka, half a lime and a takeaway

her Prozac prescription and a tin for the cat

paradise was razed for that


working to pay off overpriced boxes

they were never satisfied with anyway 

and soon they will move out and the

house will become another industrial sediment layer

crumbling my beloved dunes out from under


and they will gut someone else's childhood

to build their empty little boxes on 

the hillside made of ticky-tacky

to house their knicky-knacky crap-y

and they all look just the same. 


I want my berries back. 


Shall I tell of stars hidden by the queen?


lying underneath 

psychedelic sky

iridescent blue

sun spots in my eye


penning out my verse

he sleeps in the rays

each one celebrates 

in our preferred ways 


Shall I tell of stars

hidden by the queen

mute in the daylight

till night makes them seen


pondering nature

which glyphs to choose

lake days in the sun

my favorite muse


with hyperbole

in woods we do roam

shelter of the trees

is our little  home 


the bigger thought gets

a line of its own 

onomatopoeia

in glissade of foam 


alliterative 

litter festooned wave

words drip like driftwood

carved by the lake's lathe 


old lumber dock bones

like cypress kneed bogs 

watching memories 

and time float like logs


trash ornated surf

flecks of green and blue

silver metal can

a child's soggy shoe


assonance that makes 

an ass of me and you

oops, that's assumption

that I sometimes do


twinkling in the sun

mirrored sand beach

pass the Swiss cheese please

just beyond my reach


gritty on my teeth

from palm full of sand

universe of verse

trickling through my hand


I could write always

by eloquent sea

what better way to

spend eternity?


got water and pen

who could want for more

my man at my side

on Michigan's shore








If wishes were drinks we drunks would partake


peach bellini moon 

purple crow flies by 

pink Cosmo sunset  

in blue curacao sky


if wishes were drinks

we drunks would partake

of rainbow cocktails

and Sazerac cakes


but day is all done

color drained away 

like bathtub sloe gin

sunsets turned grey


but no one told them

arise and go home

are they asleep or

perhaps turned to stone?


sunbathing bodies

strewn along the beach 

shrouded in moonlight

their marble arms reach 


in homage to a god

with empty hole eyes

gems all removed for 

the lady who buys


back to the motherland

with her stolen hoard

on a tramp steamer 

and ghost crew on board 


and the ship goes down

taking all to their graves

the gal with the money

drowns beneath the waves


so goes paradox 

she who had has none

the thief is stolen 

by the stolen from one


such contradiction

in poetic irony 

what goes comes around

and washes out to sea 


cold as equator

wet as Sahara

dry as ocean deep

hot as the taiga


uniform contrasts 

mixed hyperbole 

same differences 

fluid simile


lyric without song

sensibly insane

musically tone deaf

Logically inane 


I shall never see 

verse so madding bad

I think that I shall

surely go quite mad


if mad is a place 

say that's where I'll be

but I shan't be long 

I'll be back for tea 


hopped a streetcar

just my cat and me

at the corner of 

Desire and Cemetery 


singing for sixpence 

on my ukulele 

puss strums the bass in

land of Honah Lee 


puff with the dragon

huff to the wolf moon

supping with devils

I'll use the long spoon 


riding the contrail 

to the end of the line

pull up a cloud 

right here next to mine


ask where I'm off to 

it's a ramblin song 

don't know myself yet

you can sing along 


start psychedelic

Sam, Bangs and, Moonshine

let her write herself 

this lil rhyme of mine

 

a pocketful of pocket

to pass the time of night

white noise machine 

to ward off my blight


so no point to my

silly pantomime

just felt like conversin'

if you've got the time









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